2weeks

Its been two weeks without you,
I have learnt to take it now,
You will always have business trips,
You will always leave me for weeks,

I can't say i miss you anymore,
I have learnt to get over it,
Am used to not hearing your voice,
Am used to not hearing you laugh at my jokes,

Two weeks is long enough for things to change.
Am still your baby thats true,
But for two weeks i can't miss you everyday

Cut it off

If your arm itchy and restless about something not yours
If your eye peeking and unhappy about your life
If your tongue spews out words you don't mean to say
Cut it off and be without it anymore.
What good is a body part you cannot control

If your lover strays and makes you get aids
If your friend stabs you right in the back
If your brother takes away what is rightfully yours
Cut him off and be without him anymore
What good is someone that takes away from your joy

I had you on my mind

I had you on my mind all afternoon
Sitting in class staring blankly at the blackboard
I thought about you
I wondered what you might be up to
I thought about who might be with you

I had you on my mind all night
I lay in bed thinking of you
I thought that you'd probably still be at your desk

I had you on my mind when i fell asleep
In my dreams i saw you
Sleeping in my bed next to you
Turning to the smell of you

I had you on my mind this morning
Feels like i spent all day with you
Day dreaming about you all afternoon
Sleeping next to you in my dreams
I had you on my mind...

When you're gone

While you are here i want none of you
While you are here i can't bare to look at you
While you are here i am always mad at you

Absence does make the heart grow fonder,
I miss you since i know you left
Today i have you on my screen saver

What is it about love that turns people into mash
I used to be able to be mad for days
Now i can never keep it up for an hour
Leave me,let me be
Let me return to who i used to be

You-inspired by wamathai

I've known you since you were in high school,
I loved you even when you'd lost your tooth.
I want you,don't act a fool.
So listen this is what i want to do.
I want to bite you
I want to get inside of you
I want to...
I just want you!

Lets get a room,
Or fuck the room, let's just find a roof.

Good morning

Good morning babe. Its all sunlight outside. Beautiful aint it? Just like sunday's should be.

Its like i told you last week..Sunday's are always beautiful since i met you.

Good Night

Gdnyt swt.
tomorrow is another day to be riddled with sadness..to be disappointed a new.
Tomorrow i won't hope to see you. Because i know its a sunday.

Maybe

Maybe someday i will smile again,
Maybe someday i will laugh again,
Maybe someday i will love again,
Maybe some day i will dance again,
Maybe!
Someday!
Maybe someday!

Patience

I should cultivate some patience,
I should learn to wait things out.
I should learn to give you time,
I should learn to be quiet,
I should learn to sit still,
At least once in a while,
Let you speak your piece first,
Before i start to assume your mind.

Of course i am mad,
But that doesn't give me the right, to walk out of your life,
Without letting you prove your side of the story.

I mad as hell,your're right!
And i want you out of my sight,
But i have got to let you,
For the first time,tell your side.

If i will ever be patient,
If i will ever learn to sit still,
This must probably be the time!!

Mother

I am consumed by this feeling,
It causes me pain i can't describe,
I pray that it stays with me no more.

It haunts my every moment,
Its there with me when in the middle of the day,
i find myself staring at her picture on the wall,
Just to remind myself of her face,
When my brain can longer form it own its own.

I find myself wondering if she can see me,
If she can see how i feel.

We never made peace and thats my fault,
Because i never imagined this would ever happen,
At least not this soon!
We had so much left to do...

I wanted you here when i brought him home.
The man that would take care of me,
Now am sad that you won't be here to give him a hard time-
Making him learn our native tribe.

I miss you! And our fights,
I haven't fought with anyone since you left.
I feel like am the only one thats not getting over this.
Letting you rest in peace.
But i pray that i will be some day soon.

I will stop seeing you dead in that bed,
I will lose this feeling in my chest,
I will stop crying myself to sleep,
And tearing up without a valid reason.

You can't die twice i know.
And you won't ever come back for us to try this again.
But i sure wish you would try.

In the box

I was vulnerable when you met me,
You said just the right things,
And smiled at me just the right way,
Touched my hand and put a finger to my cheek,
Kissed my forehead and just the corner of my lips.

As my life got worse,
You knew just what to do.
The walks in the dark after the city went all hush.
And we basked in the city lights and the stars when the moon refused to come out.
And the times you would drop by at lunch.
And we would sit in your car,
Talking and laughing.
While you touched my hand just the right way
And kissed my forehead and just the corner of my lips.

Now all of that is gone
I barely even get a phone call at lunch
Or a ride with you to work in the morning

Am inside what they call the box.
You're no longer sweet with me
You do only the things that have to be
And none of the ones that got me here

Tribute to mom

My sister woke up to wash my mom's clothes,
The last ones she had on before all this,
They are on the lines drying,
I can see them from where am sitting
...pretending to watch tv.
My mind is wondering off to thoughts of her.
The last time i saw her alive,
And then that other time when she was pale.
She still looked normal to me.
Her skin was still warm.
And her hair the same shades of white and black they've been for a while since her hair stopped growing.
The only difference is that now she won't ever open her eyes.
She won't ever open her mouth.
To smirk or smile even if no words come out.
She will never raise a finger at me again.
Crack a joke that catches me off guard.
She will never walk around the house.
Or sleep in her own bed.
She won't be here when i graduate
even though i said i wouldnt anyway.
She will never see her grandkids again.
Spoil them rotten the way she always did.
Like give them a scoop of jam with a spoon.
Or patco sweets when she has some in her bag.
She won't be there to use that nice lotion she bought that the sales girl promised would keep wrinkles at bay.
No more chamas on wednesday and thursday too.

I will just never see my mom again.

Mommy dearest

where would i be if there was no you?
who would i be if i was born to someone other than you?
what would i look like?
what would my name be?
would i still turn out this cute?
Big lips and small eyes,
light skinned and brown eyed,
just like you.

if i can't see you again,
if i can't talk to you face to face,
the best thing i can do,
is get a mirror infront of my face,
and see me when i get to your age.
i love you mommy dearest
and i thank you for making me just like you

happy

I must be happy today,
I can't seem to get my lips together,
They part just so slightly,
Just enough to let you see my teeth,
My almost white teeth...
My lips arch just enough at the tips,
Raising my cheeks abit,
I must be happy because i have been smiling all day.

I must be happy today,
Because i have been thinking well of you all day.
It doesn't matter that you stood me up at eight,
I am just happy i must say.

I am happy today!

I think of you often

it may come as a surprise to you,
but i think of you often,
often enough.

often enough to make a picture in my head,
of how you'd look getting out of bed,
bare feet in your undies,
scratching the back of your head,
stifling a yawn, smiling mid-way,
pleased with yourself for no good reason
i think of you often.

i still remember your scent,
i don't know why it never gets out of my head,
whenever a guy walks by smelling like that,
i often look back just to be sure
you haven't come back to life.

i think of you often...

i remember the feel of your beard at the end of the day,
the way you'd rub your face against mine,
so we would share the annoyance of how fast it grew back..

i think of you often my dear!

My babe's Kitchen my view

I was heading home from the market
to make a meal for myself
maybe some beans or fried eggs...
but then my babe called me on the way
he said he couldn't dream of eating anything else
but something that i had specially made...

so i poured out some rice on a plate,
and took out the chicekn that i had saved
for day like today.

i poured some water into a pot,
and picked the rice while it boiled
fried some onions in another pot,
and added the curry that he so loves.

he will eat this food with his heart,
because no one can cook like i can.

rice in the pot starts to rise...
chicken in the other coming to a boil...

then i hear a noise.
someone coming in through the back door
my babe he has arrived

and i didn't even get time to run some water in the bath,
so i could get cleaned up!
but i know it will be alright
he will still love me
even with sweat trickling down my breasts

sleep

would it be too much to ask,
that just once hwen i get into bed,
i would fall asleep,
the moment i put my head on the pilow?

would it be too much to ask,
that sleep would meet with me,
the moment i closed my eyes?

its frustrating sometimes,
lying for up to hours o end
trying to coax you to join me in bed.

so please come join me once in a while,
the moment i come to bed.

At last By Etta James

At last, my love has come along!
My lonely days are over,
And life is like a song.
Oh, yeah!

At last,
The skies above are blue.
My heart was wrapped up in clovers.
The night I looked at you.

I found a dream that I could speak to,
A dream that I can call my own,
I found a thrill to rest my cheek to,
A thrill that I have never known.

Oh, yeah,when you smile, you smile,
Oh, and then the spell was cast.
And here we are in heaven.
For you are mine.
At last.

butterflies

I have this feeling somewhere in my gut,
Like something bad is about to happen.

There is some filling in my chest,
That breathing in and out just insn't able to fix

It feels like a swelling,
like a paperbag filled with water,
like a ballon filled with air,
and i can't seem to be able to do anything about it.

Pet Tribute

Its a little slow, and it seems like it might snow,
But i will have to leave the house,
I have to get on with my day.

I have tears streaming down my face,
As i make it to the door.
And its all because he made me do this alone.

He left me all alone in the house,
So he wouldn't have to watch me weep all morning.
He said he couldn't come along,
That he didn't want to be involved at all.

I head for the clinic along that dusty road,
Get inside and fill out the form.

I sit on the blue forms,
Holding my head so it doesn't fall off.

I imagine what they will do,
I even imagine what tools they might use.

Then she calls out my name,and i suddenly feel so ashamed,
For being so stupid,for believing what he had said.
He had promised to be there with me,
He had promised to hold my hand through it.

I walk into the back room,to where my cat is,
and i notice my hands tremble as she hands me her tag!

My cat is two, and she has cancer,
So the vet said that they had to put her down,
Because she was in so much pain she couldn't even swallow one morsel of food.

And he just couldn't come along with me.

Angry woman's mind

If i let you speak, i will just loose my head,
But i think there is alot that needs to be said,
I will try to be quiet just for one sec',
So you can get a chance to have your say.

But before i let you speak let me just say,
That you had better know what not to say.

Don't tell me about your day,that will just get me more upset.
Don't tell me about that jav,that left your car with a dent.
Don't tell about that day,when we made out in the rain.
Don't even start with anything that your mother said!

I am really upset, so please just know what to say.

Tell me you're sorry that you want me to stay.
Tell me you want me and not that stupid stray.
Tell me you love and beg me to stay.

Beg me to forgive you and promise that i wil stay...

why did you say what you said!

I am awake in my bed,thinking about what you said,
Trying to figure out how it is that i messed!

I said i loved you,
Is it because of what i said?

I slept beside you,
Is it because i refused to make the bed?

I made breakfast for you,
Is it beacuse you don't like boiled eggs?

I got all dressed up to go out with you,
Is it because of that skimpy dress?

I am awake in my bed,because a wink of sleep i can't get,
Not until i know why you said what you said.

you said that she left you,
was it really that bad?

you said it was dead too,
what was it that you meant?

speculations

if i ran a mile to get to you,
if i wrote a rhyme to thrill you,
if i made time to hang out with you,

would i be worthy to you?

if i lent a hand when you said to,
if i said a lie to protect you,
if i held your hand while you strayed too,

would i be better suited to you?

if i gave my life to love you,
if i laid my head beside you,
if i gave up my time to sustain you,

would you still want me the way you do?

if i gave up my body to bear for you,
if i gave up my beauty to submit to you,
if i lost me to gain you...

would it all be worthy too?